Balancing Marriage, Family and Ministry

Joanna Mikac   |   January 16, 2020

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Balance… that silly little word we throw around in ministry and in life, yet we never really achieve it. Don’t get me wrong, I know that “all things are possible with God,” yet I don’t know if He ever asks us to live a “balanced” life? Thou shalt live a balanced life (insert sarcastic religious voice), is not the 11th commandment. Jesus came to give us life and life abundantly and He wants us to prosper in all things, in every area of our lives!


Balance by sheer definition would make us believe we need to give equal parts of ourselves to every part of our lives in order to be steady and successful.  Yet I’m not convinced every part of our lives needs to have an even distribution of our time and energy in order to be full of life, to be prospering, and to be healthy.

I think we need to throw the notion of “balance” out the window, as well as the guilt that comes along with it!

I believe the right question is, is my marriage healthy? Is my family healthy? Is my ministry healthy? Because healthy things grow, healthy things flourish, healthy things prosper and that is what our Heavenly Father wants for us. And, if one of those areas is not flourishing, then could it be that we have neglected an area that needs to be nurtured?


In life, in ministry, in marriage and family, there will be constant ebbs and flows. In one season, ministry may be demanding the majority of your time, and that’s ok! And in another season, your children may require the majority of your time, and that’s ok too!

However, I think we need to be able to recognize when one area of our life has taken priority over the others and then intentionally create a season where the neglected areas can be nurtured again.

I know my husband Jon and I have had to be very intentional when it comes to the health of our marriage, our family and our ministry. Knowing the ins and outs of our ministry lives, our family nights and family vacations are absolutely non-negotiable. So are vacations for just Jon and I (because we all know family trips are amazing, but not necessarily a “vacation”… and all the parents said amen!)

Jon and I look at our calendar every year and anticipate busy seasons in ministry, and we purposefully plan our getaways or days off after those busy seasons so that we can reconnect, refresh, and nurture our relationships with our children and with each other. This has created such strength and health in our marriage and with our kids, not to mention amazing memories! And a beautiful bi-product is that we are happier, healthier leaders and pastors to those who God has entrusted to us!


I believe it’s so important as leaders and pastors to model what hard work and commitment looks like, but equally as important to model what it looks like to rest, to be refreshed, and to keep a sabbath.

Because, people who aren’t rested tend to make silly decisions, and people who only rest don’t accomplish anything. So let’s be smart. Let’s be healthy. Let’s give it our all whether we are resting or working. And, let’s remember to continually re-evaluate our season of life and nurture those things which may have been neglected, back into a place of strength and health. Amen!


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Jesus Is King

Joanna Mikac   |   December 19, 2019

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There aren’t an incredibly long list of kings ruling today, and if they are a king (or queen), they are mainly figureheads with constitutional power, but not absolute power. Belgium, Kuwait, Spain, Thailand, Tonga, are just a few nations with modern-day kings. The only three I could find with absolute power rule in Saudi Arabia, Swaziland and Oman.


Kings in the older systems (and today as well) were there to take care of the people. They were there to make sure that there was a system in place that could provide for and protect their people in good times and bad. Bad times were often times of famine and war, and those kinds of bad times could topple a king, as he was seen as ineffective.

There were definitely good kings throughout history – kings who had absolute power and made life better for their people:

  • Suleiman I of the Ottoman Empire.
  • James I of England.
  • John III of Poland-Lithuania.
  • Meiji of Japan.
  • Gustav II Adolf of Sweden.
  • Augustus of Rome.
  • Cyrus II of Persia.
  • Frederick II of Prussia.

But if you’re like me, it can seem like so many kings had a bad rep.


If you look at the Old Testament there were 33 kings who did evil in the sight of the Lord, and only 5 good kings. That should tell us something:

Absolute power has the power to corrupt absolutely.

David is considered the best king Israel ever had, a man after God’s own heart. But he was an incredibly flawed person, and even he did something profoundly corrupt by essentially having Bathsheba’s first husband, Uriah, murdered.

So, let’s take a look at several of Israel’s kings.


God’s People Request A King

It is believed that the Israelites came out of Egypt in the 13th century BCE. The Israelite’s were unique compared with other peoples at the time. They followed God as their leader, not a king. But after living for several centuries with judges and priests to rule over them, they wanted a king.

But this was not what God wanted for them. God had led the people through Moses and Aaron, and then through priests and judges raised up to govern the people.

Their request for a king was a rejection of God’s way of leadership over them. 

The priest Samuel was a leading light for them, and they trusted him. But they didn’t have a lot of love for his children who they said did not follow his ways. In Samuel’s time, the people began to worry about who the next leader would be.

The Israelites wanted a king in order to be like all the other nations, but God had created Israel as a unique people. He was their leader.

When the Israelites wanted a king like other nations had, they were rejecting their unique, set-apart position as God’s people.

Israel, whose God was to be the only God, was envious of the nations who followed false gods. But they insisted. So, they chose Saul.


Saul’s Strong Start

Saul was born circa 1076 BCE in the land of Benjamin in Israel. He became the first King of Israel circa 1046 BCE where he united tribes and defeated enemies such as the Ammonites, Philistines, Moabites, and Amalekites.

While some people didn’t love the choice at first, he won a decisive battle against the Ammonites as one of his first kingly moves, and his first act was to forbid retribution against those who had previously contested his kingship. A very kingly move indeed.


Enter: David

Fast forward to the battle with the Philistines and Goliath, the giant. The mighty king is confounded by his enemy until a young shepherd boy comes along, using his wit – and God’s great plan – to bring down a giant and set himself up to be king of the land.

David. Of all the kings of Israel, David is the one after God’s own heart. What does that mean? Let’s look at the Psalms*:

  • Humble – Lowborn men are but a breath, the highborn are but a lie; if weighed on a balance, they are nothing; together they are only a breath. Psalm 62:9
  • Reverent – I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. Psalm 18:3
  • Respectful – Be merciful to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief. Psalm 31:9
  • Trusting – The LORD is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid? Psalm 27:1
  • Loving – I love you, O Lord, my strength. Psalm 18:1
  • Devoted – You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. Psalm 4:7
  • Recognition – I will praise you, O Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all your wonders. Psalm 9:1
  • Faithful – Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. Psalm 23:6
  • Obedient – Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart. Psalm 119:34
  • Repentant – For the sake of your name, O Lord, forgive my iniquity, though it is great. Psalm 25:11

*Ten Reasons David is Called “A Man After God’s Own Heart” – Ron Edmondson

He was repentant, but he was flawed. His rein ended in a mess, with his own son coming against him.


The Rise And Fall Of Solomon

Solomon, the son of David’s infidelity, asked for wisdom. Although he received it (Proverbs is an exceptional book), he ended up bringing the whole country into idolatry through his many foreign wives.

Even the best king in the Bible wasn’t a truly good king. He wanted to be one, but you could say: “He was only human.”


The Messiah: The Promised Deliverer

No, we had to wait one thousand years until a small boy was born in a humble stable, in very unusual circumstances, in the backwater of the Roman empire – Judea.

This man would become king. But not in the way one might expect. And that was unfortunate for those who had been waiting. Because, sadly, some of them missed it. Missed Him.

All through its long, troubled history, the people of Israel, stubborn as they were, had been waiting for someone to come and save them. You got to give them credit, they toughed it out, year-on-year. Waiting and believing. Hanging together, holding to their beliefs and traditions while mightier kingdoms fell around them into dust and forgetfulness. A sturdy people, believing that the God of the universe would save them one day. He would come and rescue them from all the meanness of life, the cruelty and savagery.

And then along comes Jesus, the beginning and the end, the Alpha and Omega, the one who holds all the universe together… and he blows all their stereotypes to bits.

He eats with sinners, he breaks the sabbath, he chats with the ladies, he washes his friend’s feet. He was the opposite of a religious person. He wasn’t doing it to thumb his nose at religion or authority – he came with all authority. He was showing us a better way. The way of love.

If most earthly kings lead from a place of brokenness, allowing their fears and insecurities to drive them, Jesus leads from a place of supreme authority and love. He came to save, not to destroy.
He came to SERVE and his currency – his power – is love.

This is the true good king. And this is the One we serve, the One in whom we have placed all our hope. God always wanted to be our King, and in Jesus his Kingship was re-established.


What king do you want?

So, in light of the frailty of men and women – which one of us can say we are above the sin that lies at the heart of man? Sure, most of us are pretty nice people, but we are all given to sin.

So what king do you want? A king that might be able to provide a good quality of life? Or, a king that can save your life – forever. One, that if you choose Him as king of your life will never leave you or forsake you. A king that came to serve, not lord it over you and crush you.

This is the King I serve, and this is the King I want. Jesus is King of my life. And I would submit that He is the best King we could ever hope for.


Colossians 1: 15-22 says:

“He is the divine portrait, the true likeness of the invisible God, and the firstborn heir of all creation. For in him was created the universe of things, both in the heavenly realm and on the earth, all that is seen and all that s unseen. Every seat of power, realm of government, principality, and authority—it all exists through him and for his purpose! He existed before anything was made, and now everything finds completion in him. He is the Head of his body, which is the church. And since he is the beginning and the firstborn heir in resurrection, he is the most exalted One, holding first place in everything. For God is satisfied to have all his fullness dwelling in Christ. And by the blood of his cross, everything in heaven and earth is brought back to himself—back to its original intent, restored to innocence again! Even though you were once distant from him, living in the shadows of your evil thoughts and actions, he reconnected you back to himself. He released his supernatural peace to you through the sacrifice of his own body as the sin-payment on your behalf so that you would dwell in his presence. And now there is nothing between you and Father God, for he sees you as holy, flawless, and restored.”


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Let Them Sing

Joanna Mikac   |   December 12, 2019

Let Them Sing


Recently, I have been meditating a lot on the life of King Saul. His various leadership missteps and the profoundly divisive effects of his insecurity, his rashness and his erraticism provide Christian leaders with a fascinating cautionary tale.


Not long after young David famously slew Goliath in Saul’s service, we read in 1st Samuel 18:6-9, “As they were coming home, when David returned from striking down the Philistine, the women came out of all the cities of Israel, singing and dancing, to meet King Saul, with tambourines, with songs of joy, and with musical instruments. And the women sang to one another as they celebrated, “Saul has struck down his thousands, and David his ten thousands.” And Saul was very angry, and this saying displeased him. He said, “They have ascribed to David ten thousands, and to me they have ascribed thousands, and what more can he have but the kingdom?” And Saul eyed David from that day on.”

Saul was the king and David joyfully and willingly served him and deferred to him. David posed no threat to Saul- in fact, David was Saul’s greatest asset. However, in the very process of successfully fighting for Saul, David found himself squarely in the king’s crosshairs.

If Saul had viewed David as an ally, then David would have been a formidable ally to Saul. But since Saul viewed David as a threat, so then David became a formidable threat to Saul indeed.

Saul became utterly consumed and obsessed by his irrational and wanton jealously of David and thus Saul only became more and more tortured and debased as time went on. The refrain of the women taunted Saul throughout the remainder of his tenure as king. He ended up being just about impossible to serve, to defend and to fight for.


We often ascribe a kind of super-humanity to spiritual leaders. For whatever reason, we may presume that they don’t struggle with issues like insecurity or jealousy of envy. However, the reality is that they often do. Evidently, not even the inaugural king of Israel was insusceptible to these things.

The language of jealousy is ugly. Her heart is bitter. She loves it when others in the Kingdom fall. She rejoices. She hates it when others in the Kingdom succeed. She feels inferior and so she becomes inferior. She hates the sound of applause that is not applause for her. She is a poisonous and deceitful Delilah, always ‘lurking at the pastor’s door and desiring to have them’.

Like it was in the case of Saul, jealousy is a snare in ministry. If we are to flourish and persevere in leadership, we must avoid the entanglement of jealousy at every step.

For what it’s worth, here are a couple of my thoughts about this.


It’s not about you and it’s not about me!

‘What then is Apollos? What is Paul?’ 1 Corinthians 3:5

Paul wrote instructively to the Philippians, ‘Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Jealously operates under the assumption that it really should be all (or, at the very least, more) about you. Certainly, those who serve God and work for the advance of His Kingdom must accept that the fame of their own name is ultimately neither here, nor there. It’s all about Jesus.


A spirit of comparison can be destructive and ruinous.

It was for Saul.

We must be particularly on guard in a social media age, where the manicured crowd shots and ministry highlight reels of others are so readily available for us to scroll through daily. If you had thousands at church on Sunday, somebody had tens of thousands. The spirit of comparison is insatiably parched.


The older (Saul) must celebrate and welcome the rise of the younger (David).

David’s success could have been Saul’s glory had he opted to join in the choruses of the women’s songs of joy. The rise of effective voices speaking for the advancement of my cause ought to multiply my joy – not divide it.

It seems like yesterday that my peers and I were the young, rising David’s – “the future”. But now, there is a greater buzz out there about the palpable potential of people coming up behind me than there is about me. So, I constantly have a choice to make. Will I open myself up to a harmful spirit of jealously to rush upon me and devour me? Or will I smile and join in the chorus of cheering for the new?

I want to do the latter.


Don’t be like Saul. Trust in God.

The Biblical alternative to jealously is faith.

Contrast the spirit of Saul to the spirit of God in Christ.

Saul said “…what more can he have but the kingdom?” In other words, ‘there’s one spot of prominence and it’s mine. I won’t let David have my spot.’ Saul wasn’t secure enough to accommodate David even though God Himself had given the kingdom to him.

Jesus, “though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men.” (Philippians 2:6).

And He said, “Fear not, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.” (Luke 12:32). His point was, ‘Don’t be anxious for your reputation and renown. Trust in me. I’m big enough to accommodate both their promotion and yours.’


So, let’s be committed to being big-spirited people who don’t mind who gets the credit as long as Christ gets the glory. Let’s smile and let the people sing about the promise and exploits of someone else now. After all, someone once smiled while they sung about us.


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Leadership Greatness

Joanna Mikac   |   September 20, 2019

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Over the years I have allowed some men and women in the Bible to be my mentor. They have inspired and challenged my life in terms of my character, calling and leadership.  In recent years Mordecai has captured my heart and I believe he is the unsung hero of the book of Esther. I particularly appreciate how the book concludes with an epilogue headed;

“The Greatness of Mordecai”.

I remember when this title first grabbed my attention and provoked me to consider why Mordecai was described as great. There’s a book in the business world, “From Good to Great”, which James Collins wrote to help good companies transition to being great companies. I like to think we can all learn from Mordecai and how to transition from being good leaders to great leaders.  Here are three things that I aspire to be and to learn from Mordecai:


  1. The Virtue of Greatness
Greatness starts as a private virtue before it is expressed in the public arena.

Greatness is about outstanding influence and importance however it always begins with greatness of character. YOU DO GREAT things because YOU ARE great.

Greatness of deed always begins with greatness of heart.

Mordecai was influential and important because he had greatness on the inside. He was a principled man who had strength of calling, character and convictions. Mordecai’s principles led him to make uncompromising decisions which paved the way for both his promotions and his adversities. In all that he did, Mordecai embodied the scripture: But the noble man devises noble plans; And by noble plans he stands. Isaiah 32:8


  1. Greatness is found in Serving Another

The book of Esther describes Mordecai as the Jew who was second in rank to King Xerxes (10:2). The fact that a Jew was placed in such a prominent position in the courts of a Persian king when the Israelite people were in exile was a divine act of God. At the moment when King Xerxes took his signet ring off and placed it on Mordecai’s finger (8:2), Mordecai was given the responsibility to rule and to lead.

Whether we serve in ministry or in the marketplace we are often called to support another leader, and this by no means minimises our ability to be great.

In the role that my husband and I have as Executive Pastors we posture ourselves to wisely and respectfully steward the responsibility that Ps Phil and Chris have given us. Our desire is to successfully lead as we serve the vision of another.


  1. Greatness is Working for the Good of the People

Mordecai was great; “because he worked for the good of his people and spoke up for the welfare of all the Jews” (10:3). I am so moved by this statement. Mordecai was great because he was kind! I always want to be a kind leader. Someone who looks out for the welfare of others – for our team, our location pastors, our staff and of course the people in our church.

First and foremost, leaders need to work for the good of the people.

Often leaders can be vision, goal or project focused and people can be the resource to make this happen. My sense is that Mordecai was not like that. He spoke up and fought for the welfare of his people. As a leader I want to be like Mordecai, so I try my best to always encourage, to show care and to be kind.

The mark of greatness is found in loving others.


Joanna Mikac   |   June 4, 2019

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Leanne Matthesius, Senior Pastor C3 San Diego


In Luke 18, Jesus is found having a conversation with the crowds and His disciples, and He asks them this question: “When the Son of Man returns, will He still find faith on the earth?” This story tells me that Faith is something that Jesus prizes most highly, and Faith is something that He will be looking for on His return!

Jesus consistently spoke a Faith narrative. “What is impossible with man shall be POSSIBLE with God.” “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but only BELIEVES, it will be done for them.” “Did I not tell you that if you only BELIEVE you will see the glory of God revealed.” “Go your way, your FAITH has made you whole.” The whole Gospel is built around Faith, and Faith was THE script Jesus never deviated from.

If Jesus were to come to our churches and our homes today, would He find Faith?


In Mark 9, Jesus has an encounter with a desperate father whose son is severely demon possessed. His child is being physically abused and tormented by an evil spirit. The Bible tells us that the demon, “often threw the young boy into fire or water to kill him.” How traumatizing this must have been. It is interesting to note that earlier in the chapter, the Bible tells us that His disciples were unable to cast the demon out. Jesus is clearly ticked upon hearing this and calls His disciples out!

Oh FAITHLESS and perverse generation, how long must I be with you? How long must I bear with you?  Bring the child to me.”

The father of the demonized child comes to Jesus in desperation. “Teacher, IF YOU can do anything, take pity on us and help us!” Jesus’ response is epic: “What do you mean, ‘IF I CAN’? Anything is possible if a person believes.”

As men and women of God, it is our job to do everything we can to remove the “IF” from people’s expectations around what God can do.


Some churches, especially in the Western world, are backing up from preaching “Faith” and instead teaching around how to “live with certain conditions.” They are replacing miracle nights with seminars on how to cope with issues, as opposed to imparting Faith to see people set free from them. While we are called to be compassionate and understanding around people’s unique situations, the Church of Jesus Christ was always meant to be a house of Faith! A place where the impossible becomes possible!


People are struggling with unbelief partly because they are constantly bombarded by stories of defeat. Bad news sells, and thanks to our modern 24-hour news cycle, the messages of defeat and despair are hard to escape from.

In order to start seeing Faith rise in the hearts of the people, we must be faithful to “rehearse the right kind of stories.”

For example, in the book of Judges, Chapter 4, the nation of Israel was suffocating under the grip of a very powerful enemy. But everything shifted when, “Deborah arose as a mother in Israel,” and through her leadership, the Israelites were able to end 20 years of enemy occupation.

What was the reason Deborah was able to secure victory for her people in a time of great oppression? How did she break a 20-year cycle of defeat? I believe the answer is revealed in the Song of Deborah in Judges 5:11: “They recount the righteous victories of the Lord, and the victories of His villagers in Israel.”

THIS IS KEY to us seeing Faith levels rise in our hearts and our churches. What stories are we telling? Are we adding our Amen to the promises of God and recounting testimonies of victory? Or are we settling at empathy alone?

The temptation will be to back off from sharing victory stories, because we do not want to offend the people who haven’t had them. While we must always approach our congregations with sensitivity, this DOES NOT and MUST NOT negate our responsibility as leaders to put Faith in the hearts of the people. We CANNOT allow unbelief to creep into our pulpits and our conversations. Unbelief is a thief, and its desire is to do the bidding of the devil himself, which is to “steal, kill and destroy.”


Of all the things we are to fight for and preserve, it is Faith!

God’s house is a place where weary men and women should find FAITH for their families and their futures. A place where broken lives are restored, the sick are healed, the oppressed are set free and people are inspired to “have faith in God” even in the midst of life’s fiercest battles.


Jesus said in Mark 16:17-18, “And these signs will accompany those who BELIEVE: In My name, they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”

Jesus was very clear about His expectations of His followers. And there is no doubt about that!


To find out more about C3 San Diego, visit c3sandiego.com.

Growth by Discipleship

Joanna Mikac   |   May 20, 2019

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Lars Halvorsen, Senior Pastor C3 Church Darwin


One thing I know is that I’m called to make disciples. And it’s not only because it’s the Great Commission, the final charge of Jesus for His people to obey.

For some reason, since my teenage years the echo of those two words “Make Disciples” lingers with me every time I read Matthew 28:18-20 or hear it preached.

In Christian bookstores I have sought out books on discipleship for no particular reason other than I felt drawn to them more so than any other topic. Further cementing this call in my soul were the years I spent teaching ‘Discipleship’ at C3 College in Sydney.


In the Book of Acts we see that when disciples are made, the church multiplies with growth. This is great news because most of us want to see our churches grow and multiply. But I have found I need to be careful because it’s easy to become enamoured with “growth”.

Growth is exciting and growth gets us noticed but if we’re not aware of the danger, discipleship (which is a long process in today’s microwave society) can get pushed to the side to make way for things that produce more immediate results.

This is where leaders get burned out, people live under sustained pressure and volunteers can feel like chattel. Things can, will and do only get worse from there.


Discipleship will always bring growth. But it doesn’t happen overnight.

It is a classic case of the exponential curve. For a long time it seems like nothing much is happening. You are investing yourself into a small group of people, teaching them what it really means to follow Jesus. Then, after a couple of years they start doing the same thing with another small group of people. When you have produced disciple-making disciples, it starts to really take off. The cool part is that this is how Jesus did it. He invested Himself in a small group of people who then went and reproduced other disciples and by Acts 17:6 they had practically “turned the world upside down”.

If we will make discipleship the goal we will set in motion a community transforming kind of growth in our churches that has the added benefits of being healthy, sustainable and virtually unstoppable. And, we will be fulfilling the Great Commission.


For more information about C3 Church Darwin, visit c3darwin.com.

The In-Between: Praising While You Wait

Joanna Mikac   |   April 13, 2019


Erika Croxford, Senior Pastor C3 People


Worship is the recognition that we were made to love Him, and that He has given us breath.

So what we do with that breath is our response, our worship, and our praise. Everything that breathes, shines, beats, sways, yields, grows, glistens, and spins was created to praise the Lord.


Psalm 100:4 (TPT)

‘You can pass through His OPEN gates with the password of praise. Come right into His presence with Thanksgiving. Come bring your thank offering to Him and affectionately bless His beautiful name! For the Lord is good and ALWAYS ready to receive you. He is so loving that it will amaze you –

so kind that it will astound you!’

Praise moves us through His gates to be with Him in His presence. It is so exciting to hear that His gates are not closed but open – thank you Jesus!  Sometimes though, there is a great chasm in our lives. I would like to write about the in-between, the dichotomy of the now and the not-yet that a lot of us sit with.


I have learned (Lord, I hope so!) to praise while I wait. As people who love Jesus, we praise in the waiting, we choose to bless Him when we don’t fully understand it all.

When we praise, suddenly we move from a place of impossibility to an infinite amount of possibility.


You may have places of pain and pressure (my hand is up in relating to that), you may have things you’re waiting on; you have been waiting on that promise for a miracle and you’re right in the middle of it all.

When you are plagued by the quiet of disappointment, it takes discipline to make a sound of praise.

When there is silence around you, its very hard to open your mouth and praise, but you must because breaking the silence will silence the accuser like nothing else.

I have found that this kind of sound is untouchable. No dark power, demon or person can bring it down! Every time I imagine what untouchable praise would look like, I literally cannot help myself, a true hallelujah bubbles within me and I let it fly.


Praise, high praise, is bringing everything – all of it! Hiding nothing and not holding back. It is honest, not sad lamenting but authentic and true. You have to mean it to offer Him the sound of praise, you’ve got to really talk to Him. In these moments we can’t hide. Don’t hide. Do not hide. (I mean, we can but everyone will know it because even if it sounds right to the hearers’ ears, it will carry no authority.) Take it all; take everything to Jesus. It is in the hiding that we can find little parts of our heart left unchecked. It is in the pretending that we can allow the little foxes of rebellion to take residence there.

Oh man! It has become so clear to me that it’s my heart that He’s after, always and always, with a fierce love.

It’s a sacrifice. It’s an honest evaluation of where things are at, and laying down your human perspective. To trust will, at times, be a sacrifice for you and I. Sometimes what we offer up on that altar of obedience will be our will.


Today, in a moment where I chose to lay me down through tears and grit, I wrote this piece –

beautiful burn

here I am
in the ashes
I lift my eyes
not part, but all the way to the high places where the air is clear and my
eagle eyes can see for miles to
the other side.
I slip off heavy clothing
and burn on the altar of praise
I am the bride of the mountain.
my fire heart
loving freedom and life more than anything

Thats it – when we praise, we find ourselves in His presence. Then we see more of Jesus in His beauty and His glory and we are changed, transformed to be more like Him, and that my friends, is true freedom.


I believe that there is a sound coming to us all. It is the sound of praise! There will be a rumbling in the people, and a yearning will grow within us for something solid and real, something honest and authentic. We, His people, will rise in a hallelujah, and it will be a war cry that silences the voice of shame and anxiety. The time of languishing is over; now is the time to sing.


To find out more about Ps Erika or C3 People, visit c3people.org.

Inklings: The Five Levels of Desire

Joanna Mikac   |   April 8, 2019

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Dave Gilpin, Senior Pastor Hope City Church


Quite a while ago, I double booked a date with Jen, and made a massive error telling her I’d cancel my other plans but it would be a bit of a sacrifice – and in classic Jenny Gilpin form she replied that if it was going to be such a sacrifice, then I could put dinner where the sun don’t shine!

I have a feeling it’s the same with God. We can be so full of complaints and find ourselves dragging our feet, thinking ‘Do I have to?’  I want to say on behalf of God, if it is going to be such a sacrifice, then you can place your obedience where the sun don’t shine!

God trades in love, and love trades in desire. If you have lost your desire then you’ve lost the ‘magic’ that started the whole thing. God is looking for a desire of Him that changes what you do from a demand to a delight.

Psalm 37:4 says, ‘take delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.’

Why would God give you the desires of your heart, unless that is His will? It seems to me that the will of God is wrapped with the wrapping paper of desire.


God is crazy about your desires for a number of reasons.

1) It reveals love. Spontaneous presents are the best, because there was no need: just love.

2) It reveals worship. Real worship needs options: it needs to be something you choose, not something you choke on.

3) It reveals real excellence. After 33 years of marriage, if Jen repeatedly reminds me of a job that needs doing it moves from being a delight to a demand. If something is a demand, I will only do it half well, but if I do it out of delight, I will do it brilliantly.


There are five levels of our desires we need to get in touch with.

1) A Liking – An attraction, curiosity, inclination, soft spot or a fancy.
The mildest kind of desire.

2) An InklingA niggle, itch, restlessness or an unease.
You steamroll your inklings when you’re led too long by ‘I’ve got to.’ Come back to the inklings.

3) A SearchingA wanting, yearning, eagerness, excitement or an urge.
What you are currently desiring is possibly your future. Everything starts with a hunger.

4) A HankeringA pining, craving, fervour or an aching.
There’s an unease in you that’s trying to push you out of your nest of predictability and comfort into the new pathway.

5) An ObsessingA driven-ness, smitten-ness, infatuation, consuming or an addiction.
Level Five desires have led to most of the greatest breakthroughs in science and invention.


There are four layers of emotion we need to carve through before we reach the layer where our desires meet with God’s will.

The Four Layers of Emotion:

  • Our Volatile Emotions

Anger, spite, hate, recklessness, rage, jealousy (mixed with the virtuous emotions of the fruits of the Spirit).

  • Our Vulnerable Emotions 

Anxiety, fearfulness, disappointment, sadness, loneliness, rejection, inferiority.

  • Our Visionary Emotions

Desire to win, be significant, live for a higher cause, to make a mark.

  • Our Victorious Emotions

Righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. Joy contains the impulses of your deepest desires.


To dig down into your deeper emotions in order to discover God’s will for your life, you need an altar. A rededication of your ambition to God, saying, ‘everything I have is yours’, and then refuse to be squeezed into the pattern of thinking in this world. Stop being overwhelmed by the top layer volatile emotions and dig down until you find the deep-seated emotions of peace and joy. That’s where your deep desires live.


To learn more about Dave Gilpin or Hope City Church, visit hopecity.church.

Leading When You Have No Idea What You’re Doing

Joanna Mikac   |   March 19, 2019

Jess Picken, Senior Pastor C3 Toronto


I’ll let you in on a little secret.

95% of the time, I have no idea what I’m doing… and the 5% of the time I think I know, I realize pretty quickly that I was wrong.

I have now been in ministry for over 10 years and, although I may “know” more and have experienced more, I still wake up every day with the thoughts, ‘What am I doing?’, ‘How are we going to get through this?’, ‘This is too much,’ and, ‘Jesus give me wisdom.’


In this world of social media, we have incredible access to hear many people share profound statements and revelations in preaches, panels, podcasts, posts, etc. This access is an unbelievable blessing, but if we’re not careful we can think these people “know what they’re doing” and disqualify ourselves.

I know because I’ve done it, way too many times. I may seem as though I “have it all together”, but trust me, I have no idea what I’m doing.

I’ve silenced my own voice for fear of not saying the right thing.

I’ve not reached out to someone for fear that I wouldn’t do it the “right way”.

I’ve not prayed for someone for fear of them not feeling God strongly enough.

I thought that I should know what I’m doing by now.

But the Bible is full of people who have no idea what they’re doing. I love Peter because not only did he say the wrong thing multiple times, which I can relate to, but he gives us a beautiful symbolic picture of how I believe we’re meant to live. Walking on water. Leading when he has no idea what he’s doing. Walking in a way that makes no sense. Walking in full dependence on Jesus.


Sam and I want to live our lives in such a way that we become more comfortable out on the water than in the boat. We want to be more comfortable in full dependence on Jesus and uncomfortable when we are depending on ourselves. More comfortable when things don’t make sense than when we have everything under control. When we feel like we’ve got too much control, we purposefully do something to put us back out on the water.

We’ve done this in different ways at different times. Sometimes we’ve given large amounts just to put ourselves back in the unknown. Not because God asked us to, but because we wanted to tangibly release control and put our full dependence back on Christ.

We don’t need to wait for Jesus to ask us. It’s an open invitation. We can make a decision to step out for Jesus without him having to ask. Jesus didn’t ask Peter to walk on water, Peter initiated. The invitation is always there so why not step out?


Maybe you’ve disqualified yourself like I had. Maybe you’re scared of the unknown. Maybe you’ve stepped out before and needed to be rescued so you’d prefer to not experience that again. Maybe you’ve stepped out before but what was unknown last week now makes sense so you’ve found yourself back in the boat without even realizing it.

Whatever the reason, can I encourage you to step out?

Step into the “Jesus I have no idea what I’m doing” zone.

Do the tangible thing; give that money to the church, step up into a greater serving capacity, ask that leader what advice they have for you and actually do it.

And if you are reading this thinking, ‘Jesus I have no idea what I’m doing,’ then keep doing it. Don’t stop! Keep your dependence on him and see how he continues to move in miraculous ways through your life.


To find out more about C3 Toronto, visit c3toronto.com.

Full Transparency

Joanna Mikac   |   February 20, 2019

Jake Sweetman, Senior Pastor C3 Los Angeles


One of the great tensions of leadership, perhaps especially Christian leadership, is the tension of how much weakness you feel you are permitted to show. Our flesh wants to be understood and to be empathized with, so in an effort to attain both these things, often times a leader can use transparency about their own pain and struggles to win the affections of people. The tension exists in using transparency to be helpful and relatable without crossing over the line into being cathartic and trying to gain sympathy.

We cross that line for all kinds of reasons, usually because we want to distract people from something that is not going well so we try to conjure up a mercy from people that probably wasn’t missing in the first place. When that line is crossed, I may well be prioritizing helping myself over helping the audience or congregation or group to which I am speaking. I’ve definitely been guilty of that.


A few years ago, during the most difficult trial I personally had walked through, which was quite long and drawn out, there were distinct moments when I chose to talk about certain elements of that in my messages. It wasn’t over the top. It wasn’t often. But I still knew in those moments that my own soul was looking to be fed from a table that would leave me wanting.

You can usually tell you are sitting at that table when your transparency casts an unsavory shadow over someone else rather than on yourself. The tension is there, and we all need the Holy Spirit to guide us in picking up and using the tool of transparency in our leadership.


That said, there is a well-known power in transparency amongst leaders, perhaps particularly so within a movement such as ours which is very relational. We know that transparency and vulnerability often win out over tough but insincere facades. We know that people identify themselves more with our weaknesses than they do with our strengths. And yet, speaking for myself, I still feel the inner war within me many times when I feel prompted to be transparent in a moment that would be so helpful. I suspect that you feel that too.

Whether it is in a staff meeting, on social media, or on your Sunday platform, it can be challenging to push through the worry of people’s perception of you in order to say something that removes your “God has not given me a spirit of fear but one of power” persona. However it is possible, even more likely, to be seen as having bold faith when you are vulnerable about your fears. It is possible, even more likely, to be respected when you admit you don’t have all the answers. My encouragement to each of us is to emerge victorious from the inner war and to choose the transparency that we know will be helpful.


Most recently I felt I had to do this with our church because of a move we made in one of our locations. We went from gathering 15 minutes outside the city to right in the heart of Downtown Los Angeles. If that sounds like a small thing geographically, it was pretty huge psychologically. Honestly it has been amazing, and I’m so glad we took that step of faith. But right after having made the move, I felt very anxious and as though we’d made a giant mistake. Purely for brevity’s sake I won’t get into the reasons why, but they were certainly not grounded in fact, much less faith.

Suffice it to say, about a month after the move, one Sunday after (truly) an awesome day in church I posted up a photo on Instagram and shared in the caption about how uncomfortable, intimidated, and overwhelmed I was.  The hugely positive response from so many people both on and off Instagram reminded me about the power of vulnerability yet again, and that people don’t need to know how fearless or strategic you are. They need to know how reliant on God you are, and what is transparency if not revealing exactly that?


To find out more about C3 Los Angeles, visit c3losangeles.com.